Black and Blue

Jacket- Topman. Vest- Topshop. Skirt- Blackmillk. Bag- Zara, Necklace. Urban Outfitters. Shoes- Topshop.

Hey guys!

Its been a little while since I've blogged my Black Milk Cathedral skirt but as soon as I picked up this Topman Denim jacket last week I knew they'd go perfectly. I love to pair dressier items with more casual ones, I like a good balance!

 Im still as in love with this skirt as the day I first got it, I was sold out for ages on the Black Milk website and I had loads of people offering to buy it from me but fortunately Black Milk now have it back in stock so hurry hurry if your dont want to miss out again!!

I have the races coming up this weekend in Melbourne which should be a really good day, I did a bit of a last minute/unorganised ASOS order last night so fingers and toes crossed it comes in time! I will try and get some photos for you guys before I go too!

I also wanted to point you in the direction of a really good Scottish band that have just released their début single, If you like a bit of dance/electro you definitely need to check them out! You can have a listen here. They have some other really good songs too!

Hope youve all been having a good week so far :)

Nic

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Memorial Service

Dearest Family & Friends,

A memorial service for Princess Nicola is going to be held on Friday, 02/11/12 at 2pm AEST at Woongarra Crematorium, Townsville.

We invite all Family and Friends to attend to help celebrate the memory of our special Princess.

Flowers are also welcome and can be sent to:

Woongarra Crematorium
Bruce Highway
Townsville, QLD, 4810

We will be doing a commemorative balloon release of pink, purple and white balloons after the service.  

We thank you for your love, your support and your prayers during this very difficult time.

Camo Jacket

Jacket- ASOS. T-shirt- Cheap Monday . Shorts- Cotton On. Belt- Vintage. Shoes- Topshop

Hello!

I hope everyone's been having a good weekend. I needed to show you guys this Camo Jacket I got from ASOS last week, Ive been wearing it so much lately. I love wearing it with all white or all black to keep the look clean cut and not over complicated.

Ive heard its snowing back in Scotland so I almost feel bad putting this summery look up...  but Ive done it anyway- sorreeee ! I'm loving Cheap Monday at the moment, their collection is so good- especially the shoes.

Im sitting out on the balcony just now listening to some 90s pop and soaking up the sun before heading to the Gay Parade on Fed Square this afternoon. I'm worried that the urge and temptation to join in will be too much.. wish me luck.

Happy Sunday everyone!!

Nic
xxxxx


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Sleep Sweet Precious Angel

It is with much sadness that we advise that Princess Nicola passed away this morning.

She passed peacefully in her sleep, surrounded by friends and family who love her.

Fly free sweet Princess, may your angel wings guide you gently home.

♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  ♥  

Princess Nicola

05-09-08 - 27-10-12

Sass & Bide Drapes

Dress- Sass&Bide. Necklace- Urban Outfitters. Belt- Topshop. Bag- Vintage. Boots- Topshop. Watcch Urban Outfitters.

I picked up this Sass & Bide t-shirt dress on a little shopping trip last week with some friends in Melbourne. Those of you that have followed my blog for a while know that im a sucker for a bit of draping! I love how they can completely  transform what could have been an average t-shirt dress into something a lot more elegant.

I've belted it to give a bit more shape and worn it with a vintage tassled bag and my faithful studded boots! I bet you guys are getting sick of these boots already but I cant help wearing them! They just make everything look so much better.

I couldnt find links to every item i'm wearing so have added some similar items in the scroll bar below :)

Nic

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Whisky and Rye

Top- Topshop. Shorts- Levis. Shoes- Topshop. Bag-Zara

Helloo... I Hope everyone has had a good weekend! This is what I wore today for some Sunday moooching, we went to a place called the Branch for a couple of Sunday afternoon beers and some live music.

Its so strange that as soon as it starts to get summery in Melbourne that its getting cold in the UK. Im going to have to try and adapt some of my outfit choices to inspire you lot!!

One of my biggest guilty pleasures is coffee and I have to say, Melbourne has some of the best coffee houses in the world! I reckon Ive only had one bad coffee the whole time I've been here. Hope you've all had a good weekend too!

XXX

FML

There are so many things that really bug the hell out of me about social media, especially Facebook.  

There is a quote that I have seen around a few times...  it says:

"Welcome to FACEBOOK.  The place where people add you as a friend, but walk past you in the street.  Where relationships are perfect and Liars believe they are telling the truth.  Your enemies visit your profile the most, yet friends and family block you...  and even though you write what you are really thinking, someone always takes it the wrong way or assumes your post is about them."

There is so much that annoys me...  I don't like the text speak, I get bugged by the annoying profiles that parents make for their very young children, or even worse, their dogs!  and I despise the way people comment on your every status, even though really you know that they couldn't care less, but they're trying to make themselves feel better about their own lives...

I get annoyed by the people who update every single little thing...  "Oh, I got a drink of water, how awesome am I?"

Or the people who update nothing except drama, drama, drama!

But mostly, more than anything else, I completely, totally and utterly LOATHE the term FML.

For the uninitiated among us, FML stands for F*** My Life.

"My shirt won't button up over my boobs....  FML!"

"My kid spilled foundation on my carpet...  FML!"

"I can't find a pair of brown boots in size 10...  FML!"

"I can't afford tickets to P!NK!  FML!"

I mean...  come on...  seriously?

If the worst thing that you can complain about is that you have big boobs, or you can't afford tickets to go to a stupid concert, then really, you need to step back, stop and think, and take a very, very long hard look at your life...

Then step out of your bubble, and look at the world around you.

Tonight, this is what is happening in the world around me.

In Kentucky, a family is mourning the loss of a beloved son who passed away from cancer at the age of 13.

In New England, a woman is watching her husband in Intensive Care after he was shot in the head because he happened to be in the wrong convenience store at the wrong time.

In Texas a mother is praying that something, ANYTHING, can be done to help her baby.

In London a mother is watching her beloved child suffer in excruciating pain while she is waitlisted for extreme surgery that most people could never even begin to fathom.

In the capital city a family has been told that there is nothing more that can be done for their precious daughter.

A few hours away, a woman is faced with losing her mother.

In a neighbouring town, a mother is sitting by her child's bedside as her child struggles to breathe...

And here?

Here, I sit...  I am listening as my husband holds my screaming daughter who is in pain that you couldn't even begin to comprehend.  Tonight, I am crying with my child, because as she cries, I know there is nothing more I can do except hold her and tell her it's ok.  

Tonight, my daughter is one day closer to gaining her angel wings.

My six year old daughter is blaming herself.  She wakes up five or six times a night screaming from horrific nightmares that plague her because she thinks that she is somehow responsible for the fact that her baby sister is dying.

My five year old daughter is struggling to comprehend what has become our reality.  She doesn't understand, she can't even begin to deal with it, so she just cries...  all the time.

My 20 month old daughter is just dealing with everyone else's stress and looking for the things that make her happy...  her Grandad and her Dora.

All around me, my family is slowly but surely falling apart, and there is not a damned thing that I can do to help any of them.  I can be there, I can hold them, I can reassure them that somehow, when this is through, we will be ok...  

But I can't change it.

My four year old daughter is dying from cancer, and there is nothing at all that I can do to change it.

So...  now...  having read what's happening in my world...  all I want to know is...

Still think your life is that bad because you can't get tickets to P!NK?

Boots!

Shirt- CocoBooLoves. Jeans. Topshop. Shoes- Topshop. Hat-ASOS.

Hey Everyone.

Ive been dying to show you two of my favourite items right now- this orange beanie from ASOS and these studded boots from Topshop!

Ive been wearing my flat studded pair from Zara so much recently but when I wear them for evenings out I always feel like such a midget! So when I saw these bad boys on Topshop.com they seemed like the perfect solution, then when they appeared in my local Topshop store on Chapel street I could'nt resist...


Hope you've all been having a good week so far!

Nic
xxxx

Peach

Shorts- Zara. Body Suit- American Apparel. Top- Lavish Alice. Necklace- Urban Outfitters. Bag- General Pants.
Boots- Vintage

Hey Everyone,

 

Hope you've all had a nice weekend!

 

 I'm loving this body from American Apparel right now, I seem to be wearing it with everything and its great for layering under los slung t-shirts or vests too. I got this one from American Apparel but I've also linked one below that I like from ASOS as well.

 

These peach denim shorts were bought from Zara a little while ago but I havent really gotten the wear out of them up until now, I love the fit of Zara's shorts. I am so glad we have a Zara over here in Melbourne or I would have felt seriously deprived! It is a couple of seasons behind but I guess thats inevitable with the different seasons and polar opposite weather patterns.

 

Ive been really busy with work just now -hence my slight absense from the blogosphere these past couple of days- but at least it means I have a back log of pretty things to show you in the upcoming days!

 

Nic

xxxx

Last Night I Had The Strangest Dream...

Well, it wasn't last night, but it was a couple of nights ago...  and the dream wasn't really so strange...  more...  well... I guess it was sad.

I had a dream that we were going on a holiday.  I don't know why, but this holiday was important, it was so important I had spend years organising it...  I spoke to the hotel repeatedly, I made all the plans, I made sure we had a ground floor room that was easily accessible for Nicola's wheelchair, I made sure we had easy access to disability parking for ease and safety of getting her in and out of the car, I made sure the rooms were completely climate control so that she would be cool enough, and I made sure that we were away from any source of noise and we had good blockout curtains so it would be dark and quiet for her, just the way she likes it. 

I spent so long making the arrangements and I checked and double checked and triple checked and then checked some more to make sure everything was perfect.

Then we set off on our amazing holiday...

And when we got there, the hotel was under construction and it was all just a mess.  The parking lot was fenced off and all the car parks had been excavated.  The temporary car park was 5km up the road and it was blisteringly hot outside.  

The only building that had ground floor rooms had been partially levelled and mostly gutted so there was only a bit of a shell left...  definitely not anything that was even remotely suitable for human habitation...

I went to the manager and I was angry.  I made plans, I made sure every plan was perfect, I checked, I double checked, I triple checked and I checked some more to make sure that all her needs were going to be met...

And now we were here, in what looked like somewhere little better than a warzone.   Around us we could hear both deconstruction and reconstruction.  It was swelteringly hot, it was humid, it was loud, it was dusty, it was dirty...  and the only room they could give us had no airconditioning and was on the fourth floor with no elevators.

I argued, I yelled, I swore, I cried...  I argued some more, but there was simply no other options.

It was at that point I stopped and I looked at my daughter and she looked so weak and just so bone shatteringly exhausted, I knew I couldn't fight any more.  All I could do was to find somewhere that I could lay her down, hold her hand and watch her while she sleeps.

When I woke up, I felt so sad, but I also knew what it meant.

The time is coming that I need to stop fighting for my daughter.  There is no fight left that I can win.  

Looking at her now, my beautiful chubby cheeked daughter is gone.  Her chubby cheeks have disappeared, she is skinny and pale and shadowy.  She doesn't smile, she doesn't laugh, her sparkle is just not there any more.  

Most of her time is spent sitting on my lap cuddling, not watching tv, not talking, not playing...  just cuddling.  

She doesn't even want to watch Wiggles or Dora.

Her pain levels have escalated so rapidly that even the palliative care pain team have admitted that we are starting to run out of options on oral pain relief drugs and we may be looking at moving to an IV infusion soon in order to keep her comfortable.

Last week we found out that she has developed a staph infection in her port.  She developed raging fevers and a really high heart rate.  She has been started on IV antibiotics which I have learned to administer here at home, but they think this infection is what is pushing her poor little body over the edge.  

She is declining rapidly, even her doctor is surprised at the change in her.  

Her body is simply struggling and is starting to shut down.

My bright, happy, cheerful baby is slowly slipping away from me.

And I hate that I just can't fight this.

New things

Bag- ASOS. Shoes- ASOS. Necklace- Diva. Shirt-Thrifted. Nail varnish

Hi Everyone,

Here are a few little bits and pieces Ive added to my wardrobe over the last week. I absolutely love this rucksack from ASOS, I know I say this every time but its another new favourite! This necklace is also another staple for me at the moment, its great for dressing up simple slips or vests and adding a bit more character to an outfit.

After being in Australia for three months, I can safely say we have it good with regards to high street shopping in the UK. Don't get me wrong fashion in Melbourne is amazing but you definitely have to pay if you want quality, their high street stuff just isn't up to the standards that we have back home- its all about investment pieces over here.

I have a couple of events coming up where I'm going to need to source some sort of formal/summer attire which will be interesting! I also have a plum coloured fur jacket on the brain- which coming into summer in Melbourne seems highly impractical- but when has that ever stopped me before?!

Nic
xxxx